7 years itch could now be 3 years

I haven't felt well the whole of today. Did anyone realize the weather is really strange? Was all sunny yesterday and raining whole of today! Madness! My throat hurts, my head spins, just feel crappy!

Having said that, I have eaten my medication and should feel drowsy by now. Instead of feeling drowsy, o can't sleep! What's wrong with me? Fml!

Honestly, the truth is I came on my blog was i've been thinking about relationships. Just about mine and people around me. My friends, my mum, my sister and even friend's friend! It send a chill down my spine and I'd thought I should blog about it before the thought just went away.

My Mum & Dad, divorced after more than a decade. Hell for us as children but am actually glad as long as they are happy.

My Eldest Sister, was with a man for more than a decade as well and broke up. Now happily married with my Brother in law who is an American.

Jos' Mum & Dad, also divorce when he was merely 3 yrs old. And now both happily married with another. (Thought: Does finding the right one comes a long way?)

And me... was with my ex for 7 years until the big trial came and we didn't pass that trial. We broke up.

Think about it.. There has always been a saying, about how a relationship of 7 years would normally be put through a big trial and if the couple pass that trial and still stay together, they will survive the next 7 years. This is kinda of a Chinese believe.I look around me and realize, many don't even last 2 years! It's scary.. Don't you think?

And then....I was reading a friend's ex-girlfriend's blog. I don't really know his girlfriend at all but happen to stumbled upon her blog just recently. (ok I am nosy! So be it.) This friend of mine has broke up with this girlfriend for 1 year and a half year. Today, my friend is already engaged to another girl. The thing that really set me thinking is not the break up. Break up can be due to many reasons and some are just not meant to be. However, I just cannot imagine one would break up when they seem so perfectly in love just a year before. And I really mean breaking up suddenly. They seem so perfect on the blog entry day to day... and until one day the entry turn bad and it was straight to the point of break up. Deeply in love before yet it only lasted 3 years.

3 years to me is not a short period of time.. And to break up and almost immediately found another seems cold. I don't mean to blame it on anyone when break up happen but it just send a chill down my spine to realize relationship can indeed be so fragile. How then can one sustain a long term relationship? How then can one sustain a marriage? The thought of all these froze me.. I dont wanna lose Jos and I don't want him to change or love someone else. I cannot imagine that happening. But nothing last forever.. That's just life.

I reckon, now to stay positive is to believe the phrase "as long as we once were, it doesn't matter of it didn't last forever."

P.S. Do we have a choice?