Love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation.
Love can consign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life.
We have to take love where we find it, even if it means hours, days, weeks of disappointments and sadness.
“You shouldn’t have asked,” I said. “Love doesn’t ask many questions, because if we stop to think we become fearful. It’s an inexplicable fear; it’s difficult even to describe it. Maybe it’s the fear of being scorned, of not being accepted, or of breaking the spell. It’s ridiculous, but that’s the way it is. That’s why you don’t ask-you act. As you’ve said many times, you have to take risks.”
Wait. This was the first lesson I learned about love. The day drags along, you make thousands of plans, you imagine every possible conversation, you promise to change your behaviour in certain ways – and you feel more and more anxious until your loved one arrives.
But by then, you don’t know what to say. The hours of waiting have been transformed into tension, the tension has become fear, and the fear makes you embrassed about showing affection.
Love is like a trap. When it appears, we see only light, not its shadows.
I find the part hi-lighted in red font, about fear, about tension and about the tons of plans to make it work when at the end of it... it all turn out not to be what you wanted it to be. But that IS Love.
Sometimes I feel so distant from my love. At some point, whenever we argue, I have this stupid urge to end the relationship because I cannot see a future with him. And yet, its too painful to contemplate a life without him. I feel totally trapped.. I am so irresistably drawn to him.
One of my dear friend asked me... Do you love him? If you do and he love you too, then its worth the pain. People do extraordinary things for love, true love changes person to better person. - Antonio
I know I am not perfect, I cannot be. But I will do my best to make this work. It will be a dream come true if this be a happy ending!
P.S. Love... thanks for hanging on with me! Hearts u! xo

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