February 26, 2011
Roller-Coaster! Yet... Boredom to the Max!
I thought for sometime... I don't know what to blog about. I notice the last I blogged was 14th February which was a Valentine's Day! Today, being 26th February, already 12 days passed and yet I have nothing I feel like shouting to the world! Strange? Weird? Maybe its Indifference? While I type this.... I've left the title blank, I am not sure what I wanted to talked about.
What did I do for the past 12 days? Its been a roller-coaster, that's about all I can remember. Do not really wanna recall a thing. Just wanna move on and have my life back. Remember this, somethings you wanna ask but you will never get it, so don't bother trying. And such are a change in human to your liking. It doesnt happen. No one change for another, accept each others flaws and beauty, life would be simpler. What I am really appreciative of are the friends that hang around me during the roller coaster period. That's like the best thing that ever happen to me. Imagine I don't have a single friend? I might just cry in one small corner, popping sleeping pills just to get to sleep.. and when It didnt help, I pop more and then die of over-dose? There is so many possibility. Not that I wanna suicide but see... one thing leads to another. Without friends that stick with me through thick n thin, I would do whatever I need to get drowsy? to get so tired... so I can sleep and not think of anything? So people need people, we are all human, we have feelings, we need one another for encouragement, for that little push to walk on in life.
So... I really appreciate my friend that sit and see me cry even though the sight of me must have sucked big time. Hold on to that phone and hear me wail, even though she might have piles of paperwork right in front of her and also allow me to wet their white shirt without saying "ehhh... its white" I realise its all because, my friends loves me... they will take time to listen no matter how busy their life may be. I love you gals! once again.. thank U!! HUgs!
So really, what do I blog about now? give me a hint now or I might give up blogging again for another 6 months like what I did the last time. sian lah!
OK.. I know!! I wanna share about me having sleepless nights for the past 4 days, woke up at 4am every night without fail. Must be some mo mo haunting me! wtf? Tried the sleeping pills and still the 4am curse didnt leave me! *cry* I do not know what else to do to sleep throughout. Sometimes I don't even wanna go to bed because I know I will be disturbed anyway. Does anyone has the same experience? Its weird because its always at 4am! eerie!
Next, I also wanna share that I am now on this whitening program for my bugs teeth before I start with the invisalign. Its been really good since the first try. I feel the whiteness almost instantly. Magic? My Dentist told me I had to do it persistantly for 2 weeks or the whiteness won't stay. But having that on my teeth while I sleep can be really irritating. Sighs... want beauty.. all i get is suffering!
What did I do for the past 12 days? Its been a roller-coaster, that's about all I can remember. Do not really wanna recall a thing. Just wanna move on and have my life back. Remember this, somethings you wanna ask but you will never get it, so don't bother trying. And such are a change in human to your liking. It doesnt happen. No one change for another, accept each others flaws and beauty, life would be simpler. What I am really appreciative of are the friends that hang around me during the roller coaster period. That's like the best thing that ever happen to me. Imagine I don't have a single friend? I might just cry in one small corner, popping sleeping pills just to get to sleep.. and when It didnt help, I pop more and then die of over-dose? There is so many possibility. Not that I wanna suicide but see... one thing leads to another. Without friends that stick with me through thick n thin, I would do whatever I need to get drowsy? to get so tired... so I can sleep and not think of anything? So people need people, we are all human, we have feelings, we need one another for encouragement, for that little push to walk on in life.
So... I really appreciate my friend that sit and see me cry even though the sight of me must have sucked big time. Hold on to that phone and hear me wail, even though she might have piles of paperwork right in front of her and also allow me to wet their white shirt without saying "ehhh... its white" I realise its all because, my friends loves me... they will take time to listen no matter how busy their life may be. I love you gals! once again.. thank U!! HUgs!
So really, what do I blog about now? give me a hint now or I might give up blogging again for another 6 months like what I did the last time. sian lah!
OK.. I know!! I wanna share about me having sleepless nights for the past 4 days, woke up at 4am every night without fail. Must be some mo mo haunting me! wtf? Tried the sleeping pills and still the 4am curse didnt leave me! *cry* I do not know what else to do to sleep throughout. Sometimes I don't even wanna go to bed because I know I will be disturbed anyway. Does anyone has the same experience? Its weird because its always at 4am! eerie!
Next, I also wanna share that I am now on this whitening program for my bugs teeth before I start with the invisalign. Its been really good since the first try. I feel the whiteness almost instantly. Magic? My Dentist told me I had to do it persistantly for 2 weeks or the whiteness won't stay. But having that on my teeth while I sleep can be really irritating. Sighs... want beauty.. all i get is suffering!
Seriously, I think I'm getting bored of blogging. I no longer have anything to share... because life is not interesting anymore.
ciaoz!
P.S. Te echo de menos xx
February 14, 2011
Happy Valentine's Day!
The Valentine's Day! Yet another day of stressed for the unwilling male and another day of wishful thinking for the willing female? Or maybe... a romantic day for the most willing couple? So to celebrate this day of love or not to? To give flowers that is 3 times more expensive than on any other day? To go out for expensive dinner that is might also be 3 times more expensive than another other day.
My boyfriend is a Dutchman, naturally, he is not into valentine. I even had to remind him first thing in the morning : "Hey its valentine's!" He replied : "Oh yeah... Happy Valentine's Love!" My reply : "How can I be happy when my valentine's is not around? Just have a good day love!" He said: "Thanks love! You are my valentine!! xx"
My boyfriend is a Dutchman, naturally, he is not into valentine. I even had to remind him first thing in the morning : "Hey its valentine's!" He replied : "Oh yeah... Happy Valentine's Love!" My reply : "How can I be happy when my valentine's is not around? Just have a good day love!" He said: "Thanks love! You are my valentine!! xx"
And that was it... Valentine's day for me.. And then he was busy the whole time with work. I never spoke to him... not even a phone call from him. Ask me if I am happy? I am... this is good enough for me. I really wasn't expecting anything anyway. Anything more would possibly be a bonus but I know its not going to happen. Not with my dutch farmerboy! :)
Everyone's expectation of a romantic valentine's day differs. One can be happy with 1 stalk of rose and home cooked dinner and another wants a candlelight dinner with 999 stalks of roses. But things gets really touchy when without realizing it, friends began comparing among one another, mainly among girls.
But really, so does it means we only celebrate valentine's day. Be sweet to one another on only 1 specific day? Surely it's good to be able to celebrate V Day and also be sweet to one another every other day. But look... there is no 2 way about it, even if it there is, it won't last. Maybe 1 percent might have both till death do them part but reality? No!
So if I am given a choice... I prefer for my boyfriend to be sweet to me every other day, I don't need flowers, fancy dinners or expensive gifts. All I need is for him to be there for me. Just that! Its not hard for most.. but its very difficult for mine relationship.. because my love is so freaking far from me!
To everyone that is attached with someone.... Happy Valentine's Day
To all the Single and Available..... Be Happy being Single! Let's Partyyyyyyyyyy!!! =))
Loves all~
February 12, 2011
February 6, 2011
Love is a trap....
I've always enjoyed the quotes and saying from him and he is definately a great author! I chanced upon Paulo Coelho's blog and I find this article so true and full of meaning. Read on....
Love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation.
Love can consign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life.
We have to take love where we find it, even if it means hours, days, weeks of disappointments and sadness.
“You shouldn’t have asked,” I said. “Love doesn’t ask many questions, because if we stop to think we become fearful. It’s an inexplicable fear; it’s difficult even to describe it. Maybe it’s the fear of being scorned, of not being accepted, or of breaking the spell. It’s ridiculous, but that’s the way it is. That’s why you don’t ask-you act. As you’ve said many times, you have to take risks.”
Wait. This was the first lesson I learned about love. The day drags along, you make thousands of plans, you imagine every possible conversation, you promise to change your behaviour in certain ways – and you feel more and more anxious until your loved one arrives.
But by then, you don’t know what to say. The hours of waiting have been transformed into tension, the tension has become fear, and the fear makes you embrassed about showing affection.
Love is like a trap. When it appears, we see only light, not its shadows.
I find the part hi-lighted in red font, about fear, about tension and about the tons of plans to make it work when at the end of it... it all turn out not to be what you wanted it to be. But that IS Love.
Sometimes I feel so distant from my love. At some point, whenever we argue, I have this stupid urge to end the relationship because I cannot see a future with him. And yet, its too painful to contemplate a life without him. I feel totally trapped.. I am so irresistably drawn to him.
One of my dear friend asked me... Do you love him? If you do and he love you too, then its worth the pain. People do extraordinary things for love, true love changes person to better person. - Antonio
I know I am not perfect, I cannot be. But I will do my best to make this work. It will be a dream come true if this be a happy ending!
P.S. Love... thanks for hanging on with me! Hearts u! xo
Love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation.
Love can consign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life.
We have to take love where we find it, even if it means hours, days, weeks of disappointments and sadness.
“You shouldn’t have asked,” I said. “Love doesn’t ask many questions, because if we stop to think we become fearful. It’s an inexplicable fear; it’s difficult even to describe it. Maybe it’s the fear of being scorned, of not being accepted, or of breaking the spell. It’s ridiculous, but that’s the way it is. That’s why you don’t ask-you act. As you’ve said many times, you have to take risks.”
Wait. This was the first lesson I learned about love. The day drags along, you make thousands of plans, you imagine every possible conversation, you promise to change your behaviour in certain ways – and you feel more and more anxious until your loved one arrives.
But by then, you don’t know what to say. The hours of waiting have been transformed into tension, the tension has become fear, and the fear makes you embrassed about showing affection.
Love is like a trap. When it appears, we see only light, not its shadows.
I find the part hi-lighted in red font, about fear, about tension and about the tons of plans to make it work when at the end of it... it all turn out not to be what you wanted it to be. But that IS Love.
Sometimes I feel so distant from my love. At some point, whenever we argue, I have this stupid urge to end the relationship because I cannot see a future with him. And yet, its too painful to contemplate a life without him. I feel totally trapped.. I am so irresistably drawn to him.
One of my dear friend asked me... Do you love him? If you do and he love you too, then its worth the pain. People do extraordinary things for love, true love changes person to better person. - Antonio
I know I am not perfect, I cannot be. But I will do my best to make this work. It will be a dream come true if this be a happy ending!
P.S. Love... thanks for hanging on with me! Hearts u! xo
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