We have to live to find out the ending.

Great! weekend is over. I've felt somewhat depressed this weekend. The depression I have isn't caused by anyone but myself. And I reckon, most time, depression is caused by oneself. You can be happy only if you choose to be. Maybe he is right, it seem like I choose to be unhappy.

I struggled everyday to come to term with my decision. I've struggle each day to conquer the fear of moving on to a foreign land with no absolute of what is set forth before me. There are so much fear, so much so that sometimes I do not know what I am doing anymore. I don't know what is going on and what led me to where I am today. And all these fear I have to dealt with all on my own, because no one in this universe would be able to give me a definite answer because I don't even have an answer to begin with. There are noises everywhere. Everyone has an opinion of me. Sometimes I wish I am deaf then I won't hear a noise so I won't get affected.

All my life, I have waited for this day to come and yet, when the time has come, I choose to fear. I choose to resent. I bring this upon myself. I have prayed to God each day for deliverance. To show me the way and make it easier for me but each time it gets harder. What is life gonna be? Will I live in loneliness for the rest of my life? Where are my friends? How about my family? There are so many questions., so many uncertainty. Is this what we call life? Such is life, nothing last forever, nothing is for sure. We have to live to find out what lies ahead of us.

Its late now... I should sleep. Good night Peeps!