When Night Falls

I wonder if you feels the same when night falls. For me, its clear.. my mind and thoughts is full of you and I only wish I could take a flight out to see you right now and cuddle under your big and strong arms. I realise taking a flight of 13hours doesnt seem at all long especially when I am seeing someone I truely love. But that isnt possible and it makes me sad.

I've finished reading the book - true love. It ends with a line like this:

"Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"

This sentence means alot to me. To be honest, I am feeling a little negative today. I am worried, totally in fear that I might lose him once again. I fear the day he start texting lesser, call lesser and gradually says this is not going to work. I've complete faith in myself that I would hang on, no matter what. But because he has given up on me before, I kinda feel shaken once in a while.

We have come a long way. A big round and we are back together again. So what is this? Fate? Who on earth believes in fate? Love? Then again... what then is love? Love is a total mystery to me.

I remember totally losing the feeling of falling in love. But when I met you, I know its love. Love at first sight? its like a fairytale... unbelievable huh? How can it be untrue if I feels strongly since the day we met. Its been a year.. still no one can replace what you meant to me.

I'll say my prayer every night : "If god will, please promise a happy ending!"

P.S. I love you