Best Friend Forever?

I've come to a point that I no longer believe in BFF. BFF stands for Best Friend Forever. Unfortunately.... nothing last forever and thats reality. Relationship of any sort requires alot of effort and its hard to keep up unless you have no expectation. Having expectation is only human, therefore, keeping a relationship going alive is just so tough.

I've had many "bestfriend" in my life but I just realise... it comes to a point, friends start giving up on each other. Complacency, familiarity, assumptions and ecpectation just kills it. So, face it... there is no such thing as BFF. A handful of good friend that will always be around but best friend? Not so much.

I am not complaining, don't get me wrong. Just coming back to reality. And reality hurts but that's life! Gotta learn to live with content and one will be happy as a free bird flying in the clear blue sky..

Cheerios peeps and have a good day ahead~!

P.S. Stability or Love which would you choose?

Letter to Juliet

I'm the kinda person that are so emotional and die hard lover for "chick" Movie. I've been watching movies after movies since I'm kinda bed-ridden after the surgery. Letters to Juliet just touches my heart by a hundred times. I know many would say its only a movie and there is no real truth and it might just add on illusions to a dreamy girl emotions. I beg to differ. Have always love shakespears... this movie just gives me alot of motivation and alot more faith to believing there is true love.

This is the letter that motivates Claire to make her move after 50 years of yearning to be with the one she love.....

Dear Claire, What and If are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will. All my love, Juliet

But then again... I have a question.. what then is true love??

Day 3 of my surgery

Day 3.... still feeling sucky and in pain. I know its recovering but I just cannot wait for it to recover faster. I wanna be able to walk, eat and run normally like I would always be. I'm a cheery person.... this is just not me. sighzzzz... god help!!

I've been feeling resentful lately. I wanna be alone again. Why? I don't know? I don't wish to be out partying anymore. I just wanna be home. Weird huh? yeah... it always happen... its time to unwind once again.

This episode of acute appendicitics should do me good. I could do some self reflection and maybe start treasuring what I have around me. I miss my family... I miss my baby.

What happen when you tell someone you going to bed and you are here blogging? hmmmm.... thought for the day. sucky!

My mind is like full of everything.... gosh I don't think I can do this. I don't know what to blog about. All I can focus on now is pain!! pain pain go away.. and don't ever come back on another day!

P.S. I love you~!

Phuket, Thailand And my Suffering after that.....

Yes... I was away for a short trip to Phuket, Thailand from 1st Oct to 5 Oct. Although its really kinda of a short trip but I have to say I enjoyed it thoroughly. The only thing I did not enjoy was having to rush with everything we do coz there was just not enough time!!


We did our first day at the spa... just beautifying our nails and indulging in oily massage.. I have to say the nails was not well done. kinda sad, I came back with my nails destroyed!


These are not real gals.. but they surely have very firm boobie!!

This is me! And yes I am real! ;)

My first henna tattoo!!3>

SGD4.00 for a plate of BBQ Prawns... Yummmy~~

After the 4 days in Phuket, I deduce that... its an island for man!! The Thai Gals were looking out for male tourist and the male tourist were all out looking for the thai gals. Ha! Its a match!

While I was there, it just kept me thinking about the time where Tsunami happened. I remembered reading about how bad it was and how many people had died from the Tsunami. But today, standing on the same island, life was back to normal.... life goes on. Beautiful building structures were rebuilt and more to come. I have to say the re-construction of Phuket is a total success. Beautiful island and surely... beautiful people. Might not be all real... but yes... they are all out to make a living.

THE SUFFERING AFTER!!

2 Days after my trip, on a friday morning I woke up, I feel this strange sharp pain on my abdomen, I thought it must have been my gastric coming back to haunt me. And when that happen, I would take a day off and get some pain killers off the GP doctors. Which is what I'd intended to do this time.

Went to the clinic, told the doctor on duty my systoms, he asked which side of my tummy aches, I replied .. well everywhere. When he started pressing on my abdomen and ask if its painful only to realise, the pain was on my right sight. He explains that it could be appendicitis and asked that I be in the hospital for observation. I confidently said no need. The pain continue to come on and off till 3pm that I could no longer withstand.

Was rush to the hospital by a friend, he carried me and claimed I am putting on weight! WTH~

And yes, after all the hoo and ha... I was diagnose with acute appendicitis which is the inflammation of the small part of a large intestines.

And yes... I went through that faithful surgery. I hate surgery. I remember the last I did surgery was removing the benign breast lump I had on my right breast. I hate the feel of totally knocking off without knowing what they going to do to me next. A team of surgeons and their assistants looking at me as if they were going to kill me! OK that is my part of imaginary. But it just freaks me out! Now the 2nd time, I resent once again but effortlessly. The next minute I know, I woke up with a bandage at the bottom on my right tummy. Good Job Surgeons~!

Just back home today. Still struggling to walk straight but healing fast I can feel. Gonna be on a week medical leave which would be a good rest for me!

I am so looking forward to my Holland trip end Oct!~!

PS - I cannot wait to see you on the 31 Oct 2010~ yeah~