Letter to Juliet

I'm the kinda person that are so emotional and die hard lover for "chick" Movie. I've been watching movies after movies since I'm kinda bed-ridden after the surgery. Letters to Juliet just touches my heart by a hundred times. I know many would say its only a movie and there is no real truth and it might just add on illusions to a dreamy girl emotions. I beg to differ. Have always love shakespears... this movie just gives me alot of motivation and alot more faith to believing there is true love.

This is the letter that motivates Claire to make her move after 50 years of yearning to be with the one she love.....

Dear Claire, What and If are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will. All my love, Juliet

But then again... I have a question.. what then is true love??

Day 3 of my surgery

Day 3.... still feeling sucky and in pain. I know its recovering but I just cannot wait for it to recover faster. I wanna be able to walk, eat and run normally like I would always be. I'm a cheery person.... this is just not me. sighzzzz... god help!!

I've been feeling resentful lately. I wanna be alone again. Why? I don't know? I don't wish to be out partying anymore. I just wanna be home. Weird huh? yeah... it always happen... its time to unwind once again.

This episode of acute appendicitics should do me good. I could do some self reflection and maybe start treasuring what I have around me. I miss my family... I miss my baby.

What happen when you tell someone you going to bed and you are here blogging? hmmmm.... thought for the day. sucky!

My mind is like full of everything.... gosh I don't think I can do this. I don't know what to blog about. All I can focus on now is pain!! pain pain go away.. and don't ever come back on another day!

P.S. I love you~!

Phuket, Thailand And my Suffering after that.....

Yes... I was away for a short trip to Phuket, Thailand from 1st Oct to 5 Oct. Although its really kinda of a short trip but I have to say I enjoyed it thoroughly. The only thing I did not enjoy was having to rush with everything we do coz there was just not enough time!!


We did our first day at the spa... just beautifying our nails and indulging in oily massage.. I have to say the nails was not well done. kinda sad, I came back with my nails destroyed!


These are not real gals.. but they surely have very firm boobie!!

This is me! And yes I am real! ;)

My first henna tattoo!!3>

SGD4.00 for a plate of BBQ Prawns... Yummmy~~

After the 4 days in Phuket, I deduce that... its an island for man!! The Thai Gals were looking out for male tourist and the male tourist were all out looking for the thai gals. Ha! Its a match!

While I was there, it just kept me thinking about the time where Tsunami happened. I remembered reading about how bad it was and how many people had died from the Tsunami. But today, standing on the same island, life was back to normal.... life goes on. Beautiful building structures were rebuilt and more to come. I have to say the re-construction of Phuket is a total success. Beautiful island and surely... beautiful people. Might not be all real... but yes... they are all out to make a living.

THE SUFFERING AFTER!!

2 Days after my trip, on a friday morning I woke up, I feel this strange sharp pain on my abdomen, I thought it must have been my gastric coming back to haunt me. And when that happen, I would take a day off and get some pain killers off the GP doctors. Which is what I'd intended to do this time.

Went to the clinic, told the doctor on duty my systoms, he asked which side of my tummy aches, I replied .. well everywhere. When he started pressing on my abdomen and ask if its painful only to realise, the pain was on my right sight. He explains that it could be appendicitis and asked that I be in the hospital for observation. I confidently said no need. The pain continue to come on and off till 3pm that I could no longer withstand.

Was rush to the hospital by a friend, he carried me and claimed I am putting on weight! WTH~

And yes, after all the hoo and ha... I was diagnose with acute appendicitis which is the inflammation of the small part of a large intestines.

And yes... I went through that faithful surgery. I hate surgery. I remember the last I did surgery was removing the benign breast lump I had on my right breast. I hate the feel of totally knocking off without knowing what they going to do to me next. A team of surgeons and their assistants looking at me as if they were going to kill me! OK that is my part of imaginary. But it just freaks me out! Now the 2nd time, I resent once again but effortlessly. The next minute I know, I woke up with a bandage at the bottom on my right tummy. Good Job Surgeons~!

Just back home today. Still struggling to walk straight but healing fast I can feel. Gonna be on a week medical leave which would be a good rest for me!

I am so looking forward to my Holland trip end Oct!~!

PS - I cannot wait to see you on the 31 Oct 2010~ yeah~

What If - To Save the one you love is never to meet them?

Day 6 without you

Lost.... still lost. But I learnt today, Loving someone is not possessing them. Loving someone is to let them go and keep them in your hearts. We might not be physically connected, but I know our soul are connected. So closely knitted. We feel for each other but the situations did not allow. We brought ourselves in a situation really strange and difficult.

Your text to me today "Hey Sweetie.. Have a good sleep, rest abit. Will be with you in your dreams... xx"

Waiting for miracles to happen.... if ever it will happen? I am still waiting...

P.S. I Love You~

The degree of Beauty - Are you a Chio Bu??

Good morning~

I woke up really early this morning!! Why?? Coz I sleep super early la!

Been going around interviewing some of my guys friend on what they sees in a girl to give them a 10/10? I realise its kinda hard to even go near to 9 or full 10 for any girls? Honestly, why the guys has such high standards? oh wait... is it all about the look? or is it really the in dept charming character of a girl? And does guys really goes for Chio Bus to begin with? Maybe they don't? oh hell! Yes la... guys can be quite shallow man.

Now, the result of my research :P (kns.. I sounded like I'm a pro eh?)

The questions was: What do you find in a girlfriend? Character or Looks?

Guy A: If it has to be about the look... then those with fake lashes, thick make-up aint chio!

Guy B: Its not the look. Just be yourself and you will be the most beautiful creature alive. (Duhzz.. diplomatic much?)

Guy C: Looks must first attract me la (God Damn shallow?) :P

Guy D: Girls with brains attract me. Nope its not about the look.

Most thinks some degree of pretty must still be there. That's reality.... girls... you must first attract and then comes the chemistry. But beware... what you dress and protray attracts different guys... so be sure to dress appriately ! :)

Have fun~~

P.S. Better be good~

Past are just Dead Memories~

Finally.. I have sometime to be at home and its a Friday! Cool much? hahahs

I just turn on my favorite song - Thinking of You by Katy Perry. Love that song to bits. Love her voice, Love the lyrics and the tune too. Sweettt~!

Hmmm... I've always been very random when it comes to blogging. I've never search for something to blog about or think through before I blog. It just come naturally from my "as it is thought". Like.... what is on my mind now kind.. LOL... i should just put them on twitter or fb? That makes things easier?

Ok.. my thoughts now? I've been thinking through of what happened to me over the past one over months. Just realise, I've not been the person I am. I've bend many rules, lowered my standards just cause of the people around me. Dumb or what? I don't know... guess its time I chin up from where I was and start walking straight, not that I did any crooked, but I should be what I am and not be someone I am not. I mustn't perpetually behaving the way I am not. I never drank beer, never did like them but now I drink every other night. I never stayed late nights but I did over the past 1 month. What have become of me? I don't know.

Oh well, I've slowed down things alittle now. I'm home on a Friday!! hahas... cool much? sighs.. dunno what to blog about lars.. boring can?

ciaozz

P.S. Why am I harbouring hope?

I AM BACK~!

Woah~ Woah~ I am back! And it does feel kinda good to be back! My last entry was Jan 26 2010.. wow its been a good 5 months!

So what have I been doing for the past 5 months? Hmmmm... *thinking*... still *thinking*

Well....... NOTHING WORTH MENTIONING! :) I'd rather moved on from the past and start now for a new ending.

So then, what should i be blogging about today? hahas.. its weird, I don't really wanna talk about what I was going through coz I dun wanna be reminded. Its painful, still hurt a little sometimes but I survived. I always do. That's coz I'm strong, I think I really am Strong! :)

I was reading through my past entries and wow did I realise I do lead a misrable life before. I don't seem to be happy since year 2010 started. And now that i recall the past 5 months, I wasnt at all happy. Superficially happy, yes. But am I really happy? I won't answer that.

I also realise I've had some problems with Joan in january.... and wow.. today is June 30th and no i don't hear a sound from her. Not even a simple greetings. I've done my best but I guess my best was never enough for her.

What else? Oh Mr P! hahas.. he is seriously a sweet guy. Its just kind of a pity that I never did fell for him despite how sweet he was. Goodie guys are just not my cup of tea? Sighz! I havent seen him since January and just recently catched up with him for dinner and ice-cream. And guessed what? He made me a scrape book of the time we spent together! Isnt that soo soooo sweet? I was honestly touched by his sincerity but still.... Nope, cant love him.

reading through the list of resolution for year 2010 and I seriously think i sucks big time with resolutions! I did nothing of that!!

Now, lets go through that damn list:

1) KNowing what I want in guys.- DOing good~!

2) Complete my Italian course - *Dang* Failed too! I havent even start! wth!!!

3) Moisture my skin every night - *Dang Dang Dang* Done none of it! I've been so busy! gosh!

4) I will not miss my Pilates Class - *Dang* Big Time. I miss every single lesson and now I completely stop going. :(

5) I will not go home early from work - ok for this, I was too too busy to be able to go home early. In fact I come home late almost everyday! errrs, maybe not coz of work but still :)

6) Weekly Car Wash - *Dang* Nope, never did. Once a month maybe!

7) I will not cry for another man - hey, wow, I have not cried for another man since! ok this I did well :)

8) Sleep before 11. *Dang* My foot! I sleep before 3am! shucks!

Arghhhh... ok whatever. I am not keeping to my resolutions. I'm just gonna do my best.

I seem to be rattling none stop without a plan. Sighz, yea i guess I don't really know what I want. Totally blank!

The KTV session last nite was kinda impromtu but fun! hahas. love that :)

Alrighty.... I m gonna sleep super early from now!

Niteyz Peeps! Lovesss! xo

P.S. How are you?